Weewee

2011-06-26T17:36:00.002+08:00

I also want to be married. :)

I have been like dreaming bout it. Having a fam and having my kids with my own home.
HAHAHAHAHA DREAM IS FREE LAH. I so wanna! If only love is everlasting and strong. X
I always thought to be an independent woman rather to be depending on someone else.
But I've learned that you can still be independent while you receive that love as bonus. Awww

2011-06-24T22:03:00.005+08:00

I wanted to rant something on my bloggie badly that day while on the train to work. But yes, because my phone is a clean virgin now, everything's gone and I no longer have that to do so.
And not sure whats wrong with safari recently or permanently I should say. Everything has been restricted more or less. :(

And I miss ranting here alone. Hahaha. Life has been good/bad/good....average. It goes on everyday with my companion of dd, my phone, and food. lol and of course I'm serving my holidays currently. V happy ; thinking I'll be able to take a break. REAL BREAK definitely. But hmmm, money is always the issue. But seriously, I'm really kinda lazy to work. Its like doing the same thing over and over again.... I'm really sick of it. But there isn't a choice la.. So :/ And frankly, apologies to my dear hillary,(if you will ever see here), thats cos I wanted a trip oversea badly and she went to help me with all research and but, it wasnt within budget and such and schedule screwed. So trip was cancelled. Im still looking..though. But I'm with only 3 weeks of holidays. So God, I wish you could just grant us more holidays, time, and money. HAHA

And there is so much things to do with so little time, so little money :( Supposingly, a trip with my girls to USS and my honeymoon trip to BKK/HK/ whatsoever la. Then BKK has to come up with this election thingy, goodness. Aiya, then nevermind. I was so looking forward to this upcoming trip with dd, then thanks lor! (OK I SHOULDNT BE SO GROUCHY)
Basically, our schedule and lots of things screwed. T.T I was very grouchy back then.
Having a sulky face... My goodness. Then dd told me its not only gonna be a just a holiday, more likely to learn something and do business-like trip. :( So I learned to be more understanding la.
Anyway, I'm really a blessed girl now. My bedroom has became a jungle full of kitties and meow meow due to our entertainment gamings at nights. And, last but not least, we finally won our iPAD2! Yay yay yAYYYyyyy YYyyaAyyy (Y)

ok sudden no mood blog lol bye all

2011-04-24T14:04:00.006+08:00

My new toy to be hugged!!!!!!!!
Caught by DD!!!!!!

Apparently, my class was great. Haha! And hey, first time we've good looking, (ahem) HAHA.
And I met with my girls of cos. And loving all the topics! All my lecturers were awesome! Yay yay.

But my eeyore had left, Hope you will find a better prospect and exceed in your life! Love!

And I believe I just leave and forget not to flick back to the where I don't want to be at.
Technically, I'm happier with life here. I'll strive hard baby! Stop looking back. :)

Actually I've some photos to share, which I finally sync with it. hee hee hee

That day was epic, zillions of photos still kept. But I'm too lazy to load.
Memories will be kept, Love.

And beloved D, Thanks for the new lappy.
If you will see this.

2011-04-11T21:21:00.005+08:00

Happiness is the feeling you're feeling,
when you want to keep feeling it.

Im such a happy girl now. This is love, babies!
I just hope there ain't gonna be any changes anymore :(

* PS./ If i'm freed, I promise to be happy. Even if i'm my own.

Holidays like a booM booM poW

2011-04-10T13:32:00.003+08:00

Its been Malaysia,JB,Singapore & Singapore till we are all so bored. This whole month of holidays I did so many manicure and pedicure! And going for ultimate massage. Oh my god, I miss those days. And what else but food? And food! I believe I still have food pictures but not the self taken pictures. Hahaha! International buffet, steamboat, sushi, Chinese Malay Indian cuisine! I swear, feel like puking. What's recent have been morning Mac breakfast deluxe set from mummy. How pro? And I wake up late every morning. But apparently reached home bout 6am almost every night? Gg.com FML. The food nua like mad. And!!!! Mos burger!! Wtf. It had became a part of my life. I think I had it consecutively 3 times a week. First delicious one was with my beloved Hilary, second was with Dd ( the very next day ) and lastly, with my sista! Hell. Imagine if u were me. Fattening and wanna puke. Ha! And I realize. The freshest ebi I had was with my precious Hilary! ( It was a happy happy day, I promise you out sentosa soon!)

Everyday was good food for me, I swear! Yum yum
(Pardon my ugly pictures, too busy eating) :)

heavenly indulging, smooth and slippery! lol

One of the gifts from Hk

Miniature cakes

1 for 1

And yes, I gotta apologize to my dear girls Betty & co for not going! Sorry :( I knew I promised! But I'm shocked it's steamboat again. Really can't intake further. Maybe the very next time ok? I love ya all plenty. My caring babies always! Hahahaha thanks. Glad I always have caring friends :) My that 5 girls and.. my partner last year. Thank you all. Appreciated!

And ya'know what. I shopped the whole usual place of JB I used to go. Nothing much lah currently. I'm still looking for my new school bag. Technically I have got one, that's when I use for heavy stuffs ehehehe, love! And I'm so particular I need get 2 pairs of shoes :( ended up I couldn't! Just one! But I shopped lots of bottoms! Imma happy girl! School starts tomorrow.

Ok, love ya all!!

2011-04-09T14:15:00.001+08:00

My best buddy love love!
Lotsa love

2011-03-21T18:02:00.009+08:00

Hey babies,

Officially having my holidays. Therefore, I'm playing with darling lappy and guess what. Yes, that's right, I changed my skin! Haha. Sorry, I know that was lame. But I'm happy I somehow did it. It used to be so popular,right? But now we are all dumping blogs aside. hee hee

Definitely, I have been enjoying way too much. Falling sick due to lesser sleeping times and indulging in delicious, meaning unhealthy food. But who cares?! Yes, my mum does. If I were to continue living lifestyle like this, life span are definitely shorten.

Yes. And there goes my beauty sleep, I feel myself growing uglier. Ha! That's because whenever I look at my past. I think I look way better, ermm not trying to praise myself. But I really look sweeter and younger. Nah. Everyone tells me that either. Usually girls grow up being prettier and slimmer. I'm much more of the opposite way.

But I think I kinda forgot to take pictures of me having fun. Hahaha! Recently had too much activities and all pains are acting up. I love my bed every night I got back. Or should I mention mornings. Sigh! I'm living in guilt for letting my body suffer. No rejuvenating, Sorry baby.

I finally decided to sync my phone to computer. Realized there were hell lotsa pictures that I have promised to post. But I think it's too much, and it's old. So why bother, right. But anyway, I had a blast with Premy, Rachel and all..on saturday. To celebrate Meiying's birthday. She finally had all her shots and alcohol and gone! So I hope you enjoy your birthday, girl! Lots of love.
And sorry to those that I made myself like a fool. Ha ha!
And I was burned by cigarette butts. Please don't leave a scar, baby!

One of the best human on earth, always sparing a thought. On a lazy day, I was real lazy. Wanted to have Kfc delivery, And guess what!!She personally delivered it after I whine to her. Thank you my dear friend!On accord of that, I decided to prepare and we went Ikea and Giant. Like what the hell.And we went shisha! Like how long ago ever since I went with Luv. And that place was freak. Nicely decorated, but humid and my nose acted up! Left after awhile when I couldn't take it. Dd was rather fed up the whole day and I was kinda restless to continue too.

Super restless and messed up look, Wanna change hairstyle again! :(
Because of Prem, I'm demoralized. MY HAIR!

2011-03-18T12:46:00.001+08:00

Always have no sense of originality. Dislike you! Plenty! And always not being courteous when asking for something. What do you really think you are??? Use your own originality please. Don't come liking it when you decides to do it. & I doubt u even know it's referring to you my dear FrIe!Nd. Yuck!

2011-03-13T11:07:00.001+08:00

Ok, hi. I'm in the train with no seats on my way to work. If I have a seat, that will be better. I'm suffering like hell now. Late for work, no motivation to work. Basically I have been stuck in this part time for coming to 10 months. Boring because I have been repeating the same old shit. Therefore, I aim to have another job. Haha! Sho lame lah. Like as if... I want, I get. Well, so.... I would like to declare,
"MY MAJOR EXAM FOR INTERMEDIATE HAS ENDED".

You can't explain how happy I'm, really. Especially chionging hard. But end up papers like crap! Hate accounts.. But I'll strive to finish it lah. Super sian! Oh yes. I would want to say I really forced myself to get the theory in. Was darn tired, couldn't get enough sleep due to anxiety lah. But now, even if I want to relax, is difficult la. Because I have to work work work and work. But the pay scheme like shit now. So if you have any high paying jobs, please let me know. Else Dd will say I can't survive in this world or rather Singapore. That is why I couldn't depend on guys. It will literally burn a hole and I don't do that. I depend on myself. Except I accept presents! Haha!
Frankly speaking, I'm a god blessed girl. Yeah, I'm always showered with gifts! I'm always remembered! My friends are such a dear! Thank u, I love ya all :)

And oh yes. The day I ended my exams. I tried my best to enjoy so much. With the bestest bed and facility! I played for one whole night! Then the next day was work. Awesome in a sense of tiredness. And what best is that I receive many awesome gifts and treats from hk from my dearest MIMI lah! THANK U AH! MAX LOVE! <3

Ok, I'm reaching. Chat the next time! Haha! Meow meow!

With lots of love

2011-03-02T13:36:00.001+08:00

Went JB to shop with my dear girl! Haha. Of coz I'm ended up with my kitty stuff and blings blings! But after I got my stuff n spent all my moolah.... I then saw things that are nicer & worth the money!!!!! How SAD RIGHT.... hah! anyway examinations are around the corner, I'm definitely screwed. :(

But... I promise to strive hard and oriented towards my goal!!

With lots of love

2011-02-16T10:26:00.001+08:00

Exams are coming. Really stressed out or prolly I'm not really fit to say that since... I've been enjoying my days and working my weekends away. I thought I should have think about myself but not them first. Otherwise they wouldn't have asked me to work. Like I'm giving away the feeling that I'm not serious in my upcoming exams :(

So I've been enjoying.. Been to many places. Wish I could share all the pictures but I'm only limited to one. Haha!

Oh yes. I really miss Mac breakfast lah! Today is the only chance that I could finally get to eat. Before I really said so, I hope I'm not late! Haha! I love y'all :P

An happy day

With lots of love

2011-02-15T13:42:00.001+08:00

I will try to come often.. If I could. This year valentine was the sweetest of all. Receiving gifts from my girlfriends and loved ones. Thank you v much all!!!! Anyway will try updating this area if I could. Xoxo

2011-01-05T00:49:00.002+08:00

Hi, I have enjoyed my holidays so much, almost every single days despite all the disputes with Dd or mummy or brother or sister or friends. But I thank you all once again.

Heehee anyway had been meeting prankster and Dd and my girls for our gathering. Yes, when one of them have turned into a clubber addict. Well, Had much fun though. Been having good food once again so Im fat. Then school is like starting on this coming Monday. I cant imagine Im typing this faster and so much easier on Blogger than doing my freaking report for my assignments. I swear it was a difficult tasks given because we aint given any freaking clue or idea of how to do it. I really hate it that we have to figure out. Without Dd and prankster help I wouldn't be able to it. I'm so glad I have clever and smart people around me else I will be so dumb that I might die unknowingly.

So I have got my camera. I'm really a happy girl cuz prem help me got a hello kitty one with hourglass shape and films. Really couldnt say how nice my friend is. Really. How many such friends do you often meet in your life? But maybe for a special reason I still appreciate for every single thing. I will never forget the good food, good old times. Taking care of me almost everytime. U dont find such friends just on the street. Thanks. Even on that drunkard side of you, I know I throw more temper on you babe. Sorry... :)

What made me actually come here is because, I couldn't sleep. Feeling excited because I finally had my passport done. And will be heading out of town with Dd to stay over. But I feel insecure because its dangerous always thinking and afraid I will never be back. So just in case. (TOUCH WOOD) Sigh. Anyway it was a long waited one. I remembered showing attitude to Dd everytime I head to JB coz of certain things. I hope I will be able to get something I like, and not having any disputes with Dd.

I can't explain how blessed I'm. Will come back with pictures some other time. 8)

Bye, love you people.

2010-12-23T14:45:00.002+08:00

Have not been working 4 days. Its hardly I get such ample rest though. Its where I relax myself and now not wanting to go back to work. Sigh.. Anyway. Just that I miss here, this space here to allow me to speak. To myself though. Life has been tough. Sometimes it makes me wanting to end my life badly, sounds silly again. But there was a point there was too much to breathe. But it was my choice after all. We all enjoyed so much, so much till we forgot who we were. I flunked my studies, badly after all. Couldn't give a answer to my family.. Kinda bad sigh.

Looking at the calendar, I have been meeting up with Dd consecutively. Good or bad is a mixture. It has drawn us closer too and that makes me easily irritated too when we understand each other too well 8) I had been having good food,being pampered and loved. Not only Dd, I thank my friends too. For being there for me. I had a good damn time. Even gotten to 'sneak' to butter to enjoy with the rest. Ahh.. these moments. It really feels great. And I can't describe how much I love RWS. Hahaha only like part of it. I swear I can relax there! So it have been TMCC Garden, TCC bird nest seat that were reallly romantic enough..haha. I do have pictures la. But wonder if I will be lazy to load them either...

So...tonight. I wonder how Dd have changed.
Hope you do make your word this time round.

MERRY CHRISTMAS BABIES

2010-12-06T21:20:00.001+08:00

COPY CAT CHASE THE RAT

2010-11-05T14:49:00.004+08:00

Say u understood me. Say U understand my life.. I know I chose this life!!!

But heaven, this is my issue to deal with. I couldn't stand it if I'm already dumb enough to know the answer yet I'm being provoked. You don't know my life. U really don't! U don't know how fucking irritated I am to be in this! Screw all the smart people. Yes, please thank u.

2010-09-20T12:43:00.003+08:00

Hello earthlings. My blog is so dead. Partly I don't have the time to come here. Unlike the past. I will be very active on FB & Blogger. But now, I'm too lazy to do so. At first, it was studies and exams. Boring shit. I know I didn't do very well for my forever boring subjects. Ok. Tough ones. Sigh.. I didn't concentrate fully due to so many happenings this year. Sucks.

I admit that I enjoy much more than I mugged hard for my exams. But I did put in that effort. Real afraid to know my results now. But work will keep me busy and refrain me from thinking bout it. I'm seriously a dead bug now. I have never stayed at home for more than 8 hours maybe other than sleep. Mum mentioned I have been treating the home for a hotel right now. I couldn't deny I love to enjoy my life so much. Be it deluxe or luxury. I'm more than willing to spend the money. Especially on nice clothes. Haha. But one thing, I'm Fat. Ok boring topic again. I'm always filled with care and concern and nice food around me. Friends, colleagues, family. Without fail. And D.D. Thank you for being all there to pamper me with love.

I can't express how much I'm a blessed girl. But really blessed enough to be blessed. Well. I just don't learn to appreciate. One of the shocking day this year today was D.D buying cup cakes and air balloons for me by giving me a surprise unlike those boring presents that I've received from D.D past years.

Also, I didn't forget my girls. Betty, Yunlin, Ruizhen, Darshini, Zhenyi, & Michelle.. They made a collage of photos for me. Really touched. My girls has never been away on my mind. Love ya all.

And never to expect that my two naughty ones Mango & Watermelon to get one for me too. Thanks all. * P r e s s P r e s s *

Not to miss. My ever luxury. St james. Would want to thank my girls and boys for the special treat. And definitely my first time entering a club LEGALLY!! Like finally. The feeling was different. But I couldn't explain how much I enjoyed myself except for the part where they sabotage me on the stage. It was....embarrassing. Hahahaha.

Actually. I have tons of photos to post. BUT I'M LAZY. SO perhaps another day then. But from tomorrow onwards I'll be working. I wonder where do I find the time. ): It's ok anyway right? Since no one is here reading. Haha! I'm just doing self entertaining here. And I can't wait. F1 is coming. To break my legs. Ok. Love you all. And D, I'm sorry for causing all these. God bless. Love you.

2010-09-02T16:36:00.003+08:00

At this point of time. First time in my life to face a disaster like this. No wonder there are ups and downs in life. and everything just came dashing onto me, like this.
I wish it was only a dream.
At this moment, I need you so much. I hope. '
It could just be nothing else. Just the happy old me.

2010-08-28T11:38:00.001+08:00

Did I forget to mention I'm a happy blessed girl???? HAHAHAHA I'm not out to cause jealousy!!!!!!!!!!! BUT for the very first time, I find my birthday meaningful! Thank you darling! D.D and my girls!!!! LOVE YA ALL

2010-08-24T01:12:00.003+08:00

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2010-08-18T12:19:00.005+08:00

Treasure your love ones before they are gone

Had steamboat with CELESTE OH on Monday. A sudden one. Hahahahaha anyway am happy though.. thanks :) Because I was pretty disturbed with darling. Made me berserk and that I don't want to meet anymore. Aftermath, Met my 2 girlies and the rest. Was waiting for them to finish their food as I couldn't stuff myself any further! And they suggested having K sessions for no reason. And then for 4 straight hours, we finished @ 2am. The feeling were grea8. At least I'm able to sleep and cool down a little b4 I'm prepared to meet the one who made me angryyyy. Haha! I had lots of food. Which is I'm not supposed to do this to myself.. Sigh but I enjoyed myself :D

I met up with darling the next day. It was food again. But we delayed and had food at night. So it was like a feast once again. Hahahahaha. Imagine satays and otahs. Plus a plate of noodle -.-
Been complaining how fat I'm and how sinful the food is. But darling couldn't be bothered la. And here comes the ever most sinfulest part. Darling brought me to have Ice cream chef!!!! And I finally gt my "Free Mix-In" Chop! ya'know what. The first mouth of Horlicks melted in my mouth and was close to orgasm! (OooOpS) Hahahahahahaha. I've been longing for that even though I know how...sinful..that is. But still. I had a wonderful day!!! Love me life like this!!!! (Y)

I seriously believe that Its been so long ever since I updated my life like that. Heeheeheehee. Thank you all for the love. :P

P/S: I don't wish to ever mention you in my life. But i seriously think. Don't have to flaunt in front of me. Even though I know you're the kind whom will stabbed me hard at the back. I learned my lesson. Oh yes. Do be careful with the kind of friends you're now with. Your closest friend could be your worst enemy, honey. Its sad to know that they are obvious with the answers but still leads you on. It's ok with me. Cos' I know I've not done wrong. But someone could have just got me wronged. Don't. Don't flaunt in front of me with. I dislike. Haha. Your friend is a hypocrite! :P

2010-08-16T12:58:00.001+08:00

Hate this current holidays. Hate. Hate. Because I'm indulging in luxuries. Hahahahahah Sucks!!!!

2010-08-11T15:05:00.002+08:00

Enjoyed myself recently. Although work is tough. Thanks for the awesome day, love.
D.d has been great. I hope it could stay this way. I'm a happy girl :P

It was meant to be ugly, like this. But I like!! HAHa

2010-08-04T22:13:00.002+08:00

Don't worry, I'm really fine. Just trying to find some space.

Realizing how sentimental I could be. Realizing how emotional I could be.
It's sad when people you know, became people you knew.

I don't know how to start with this. But ya' wasn't like this in the past.
Or have I changed a tad too much? I don't know. Probably was the answer.
I get so over obsessed with everything single movement,words, everything.

I never wanted to be like this. But how do I stop from this current me?
I hate it so much, too.

2010-08-02T17:29:00.000+08:00

If our life could be just be as wonderful as we want it to be..

2010-07-27T23:56:00.004+08:00

Thought blogger wouldn't cooperate with me to be the last person on earth to hear me speak about my sorrows. Haha. Anyway, cho heartbroken. Heartbroken when I thought I could share my hatred with someone whom I thought I could feel better with. But how sad. I was wrong in the end. Anyway. I just felt that. No matter what. It's very hard to trust someone. Be it anyone. Haha! I'm not angry with you. Not at all. I'm just sad. Just heartbroken. It's just enough for me. Thanks :)

2010-07-20T00:50:00.005+08:00

Did I mention about how it sucks being me? Hahaha.How annoying! I don't deny I love being busy. But when you're busy, you're going bonkers. And that's what I'm experiencing now.. So what i'm literally here just to nag about my daily life and such. Life has been a bitch. This week has been the ever toughest part of life for ME. Could not do anything bout it but to struggle it through - that's life. -.-

I seriously miss the life that I can do nothing but just spend. Haha. Been splurging a tad too much. So weekends are always packed. Filled up with work :( Why can't I be one of those rich kids!!!! Hmmm anyway. Supposed to sleep! HAHA. I just want to complain that I just can't stand human beings being so fake to their own friends. I hear everything with my own ears..and well. I just have to shut the hell up. This is tough. I hope you'll come to know the truth someday that you have such a friend. HAHA. Anyway that's very bad of me. Haha!! Ok end here. I miss my lying-on-bed time. And. I miss. Alot. Of. You. And also. Not forget to thanks the people that are part of ME. I love ya all'. :) Esp me girls! Love!

2010-07-10T14:52:00.004+08:00

When IQB Bonds

Thank you all for all the moments.
love ya'all

2010-07-08T18:13:00.002+08:00

I don't understand. Whats the meaning of when they worry and care but they don't seems to even care at all. Sigh. Anyway. I think it's sweetening. Thanks sweet wrapper. :) Ya' made my day.

2010-07-01T23:53:00.002+08:00

God knows how much i've been enjoying life lately. To the max!!! Few tasks completed. Caught up with my girlies, ktv sessions with my threesomes and a class bond as well. But not much with D.d. Life has been a drift between we ppl. Work. Eat. Sleep. Then the routine continues. I've been a lazy girl. Am really lazy to do anything for my holidays assignments. I don't know why must there be assignments. Sigh.

Happy Birthday.To.You.

Last night. Yesterday. Your birthday. I.ruined.it. I'm sorry that I sulked the freaking whole day. Couldn't accept last minute changes. From you. I'm soooo hard to please. I'm pissed with myself for being such a difficult girl. No one seriously can take my nonsense. I so wished I could fly into another satellite/world last night. I so wanted to end everything badly. Yet. I remembered how I couldn't wait to celebrate your birthday together with you. I don't claim myself to be one romantic person. But I'm one sentimental person. I get affected so freaking easily that I can transform to another alien from another world within 1, yes 1 second. How scary is that. I keep quiet. I kept my mouth shut. Totally, I've nothing to speak about. I too wished.. that I wouldn't be like this. I always. Always promise myself to change. Change this crazy stubborn habit of mine. But everything goes back to square one. Sometimes I'm dying to be with you. Dying to travel with you. Dying to be with you every minute of the time. But I find myself as a irritant, low self-esteem brat. Thinking how you'd be sick & tired of looking at the same faces every time.
You're such a dear. But everything will eventually comes to an end one day. God, why must we always part with all the sweet things/times/people/love..we have. I'm sorry. Feeling so remorseful after last night. If I were to be given a second chance. I'll celebrate your birthday, with a smile all day. Be the best person I could. But it's just too late. I just want to thank you. Thank you for tolerating me once again. But deep inside. I really need someone to care for me. Someone who will be there for me. Someone who will appreciate me. Someone, no matter what.

2010-06-28T12:53:00.002+08:00

SAD SHIT. We both worked!!!!! For the very first time in a very different environment. My god. And here it comes. Darling I really hate it so much. I really have no idea. No idea how to salvage any shit out of this. Ha!!!

2010-06-21T00:52:00.003+08:00

Days have been rather enjoyable for me. Yes. But I've not completed a single shit for my assignments though. Lol!!!! Anyway what makes me come here. Ha!!

1. I caught up with Celeste oh( thank you)
2. I'm pissed
3. I decided to rant.

Some. Just literally have no limits! Not referring to any. Please don't get the wrong idea.(haha) But just, some. Haha. God, I think i feel like a loser here. But whose the real loser instead. I mean like come on. It's freaking obvious. Wtf. Have that originality leh? Cho boring ):
Oh boy..I dislike uh. Very much. Thank you very much uh. It's disgusting,people. :P

Recent updates bout life was Food?? Like Food?? My god. Really, Food. I must have disappointed some!! Hahahaha! YES. I admit I've been indulging in too many good stuffs. Really. Please envy me. But I envy people who don't grow fat. Haha!!! Anyway. I love me lovelies very much. Thank you for being part of my life yo. :D

2010-06-18T23:48:00.004+08:00

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2010-06-18T20:33:00.002+08:00

Holidays!!! But how boring if, without work. Sigh. So I'm on & off from work. I don't know whether to complain if short hours will be good/ if long hours would be better. Everything has to do with incentives and it's all on your OWN. On your own, to earn the amount of money you want to earn. My god. And it's so tiring when people always rejects your offer. Even when it's fucking free. Ha! Including myself. So I can understand fully how those felt. But anyway, A heartfelt thanks to all those who helped. Am very grateful. Hahahahah.

And while typing and posting, I'm indulging in sinful stuff like Famous Amos. Wtfffffffff. And I finished the whole of 104grams? Screw me please. I couldn't resist to pack sushi and amos back after work. And then, I'm supposed to share ok. What a pig. But really. Yakult is the sex. Hahaha!! Thats what D.d taught me la wth. But it does no effects on me. Haha!!! Who cares la. These few days am really happy when people is really there when I'm about to fall. A total disaster for my june holidays. Sigh. I don't know why does a family have to be like this. I don't know why she has to be like this. Dislike dislike dislike. But thank god D.d is always to put on a smile on ME. Really. I want to thank you so badly. Oh and of cos sweet heart.. Thanks for ya ears. Need it so badly too. No one else? Yep. Hmmm Hmmm

I'd want to spend time with you too.. Be it a picnic. A stayover. Anything. I hope everything could just be better. I like it this way, yes. Thanks for all the to & from. Thanks for the nicest ever yummiest food I could have in me life. Love!

2010-06-15T01:29:00.005+08:00

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It can also be an additional add up of accessory for your bag definitely. It comes in handy when you're going for shopping and when you dislike carrying "ugly" plastic bags. And by using recycling bags, you're definitely saving the earth la!! Hahahaha.

Saving gaia ok??

If possible, would appreciate if you could to pass the message around la. Thank you very much!!!

2010-06-05T17:02:00.004+08:00

Seriously I'm bored to death right now. Camwhore till my head cho giddy la..
Our eyes really look alike. I'm damn broke.

The view was awesome @ Clarke Quay. Ha!! Me miss yesterday with Dd!
Thank you for everything.

2010-06-01T23:17:00.004+08:00

I feel sorry. Sometimes for me. Sometimes for you. For others. Sorry.
That I'm a bad girl.
Breaking people's heart. I didn't mean to. I didn't want to. But because of my greediness, I'm always sorry for what I've done. After all the ups & downs.. I suddenly felt refreshed. Suddenly, everything seems to be no longer important anymore. I'm still so curious towards the life you lead now. Curious. But I was the one that stopped all the fantasies. You were so nice. Thank you. Thank you for making feel the feeling of being cared. Thank you for the care you've once shown. But I chose the other path instead. I always complain not receiving enough care. Actually, all people around me are caring for me. I really can't thank you guys enough for being in my life..

2010-05-30T21:53:00.002+08:00

Tell me, which girl doesn't wants to have their wardrobe filled with endless choices of clothes?One of the girl's hobby. I like. Ha!!! Lastly, Good luck to all taking the exam eSp my IQB ;-) God bless!!!!!!!! The power of Guan yin ma. Hahahahahahahah

LuVy'all.

2010-05-29T17:56:00.001+08:00

HELLO!!!!! CAN SOMEONE TEACH ME HOW TO STUFF THAT 3 UNITS OF DRY THEORIES?!?!?!?!?!?! INTO MY HEAD???? MEMORY FULL!! IT SUCKS BEING A STUDENT AT TIMES,TOO!!!!!

2010-05-29T01:37:00.006+08:00

We.failed.to.touch.the.book.
I.feel.guilty.Bad.BAD.Sad.

I wasn't suppose to do this. But GSS couldn't stop us from going from shops to shops. Ah.. So many beautiful things when I don't have the money. What the hell. Been eating again???? Sad. I'm out with this siao ding dong kept spamming my phone. So DBT. I promise I will flood you back. Been so long that i'm with pictures while blogging. Exam is on this coming Monday. Really. I.cannot.come.back.to.touch.the computer.again.

OKAY OKAY STOP FLOODING
Today is a nice day

2010-05-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

Why.are.humans.always.like.that.

2010-05-24T19:29:00.002+08:00

I don't understand why do you always have things difficult for me.
I don't understand why do you have to say nasty things to me.
I don't understand why I've to go through all this shit things.
I don't understand why it has to be involved in my future.
It really hurts more than it can be. You're always like that. Always.

2010-05-21T16:48:00.001+08:00

今阿日月娘那这呢光
照着阮归暝拢未冻困
连头毛都没休困
你甘知阮对你的思念
希望你有同款的梦
咱两人做阵返来那一天
互相依偎的情爱
底你的心肝内是不是还有我的存在
永远拢底等有时阵嘛会不甘愿
想讲要作伙飞去一个心中美丽的所在
所有的一切拢总尬你放作夥
希望你会当了解
亲像鱼死底花园
我不管多少时间多少目屎多少失望来忍耐
我不管你当时会返来
其实我嘛不知影为怎样为怎样憨憨等待
你是我唯一的爱
为着你我一定等

Addicted! Dd's the culprit.
Hahahahahaha

2010-05-21T16:10:00.002+08:00

So when people are flaunting their beauty and..figure and what's best. I can't help but to "flaunt" bout my eating habits. Ha! I don't know when it started to be this worst. It started when I'm trying to have myself starved. It wasn't good. Slows down your body's metabolism rate lah.. Then I started to eat properly la. Worst... Everything becomes constipated then I got to depend on the pills. Not good. At such a young age la. So Dd was the motivator la, to prevent my stomach from hunger pangs. And now, I really eat a lot. Never seen such a pig side of me in my life. Haha. Actually have la. But I always blame on my mum. Blame her for bringing me into this world and see the ugly side of me, blame on her good food, blame on her eating habits. It will really scare you people how we have our meals la. Then Mum usually finishes off the food that my brother and sister couldn't. Okay, not trying to bad mouth her. But..she finishes it off not cos she's not full la. Don't want to waste food and such. Which I think it's a wrong philosophy mind of thinking.
Hahaha! Perhaps la. Perhaps it's really got something linked. But I'm a food waster. I dump food. Food that are not suitable for my taste buds. Haha.

Really. I don't know to blame myself for spoiling my own system. Or to blame that person who teaches me to drown my sorrows with alcoholic drinks few years ago-which I hate terribly(so crap) Or my family. Or my Mum. Forget it. Of course I blame no one but myself, Sigh. This is stupid, but I envy people with fast metabolism rate. I'll eat what I want. At least I'm healthy la. Hahahahaha.

So what actually made me come here and be nuisance to my blog - The food I had yesterday with Dd, Dd's gonna be away. How much care I've got from my mates. Haha. Anyway, you girls are very sweet la..thank you very much. You know who you are ;)

Dd almost made me bonkers with the food we had. Big plates of westerns, Soup.. The best part is we have 2 rounds of Double scoops ice creams from ice cream chef. How crazy! I should have ask Dd to just go. Leave the place. It's all thanks to McDonald's that they have to only sell the Horlick Crunch ONLY on dessert kiosk. How irritating!!!!!

Else we'll just try that once and for ALL!!!!

I don't know how will I feel with Dd not around for that few days. Maybe much more relieve, then I will also be with my girls not always rushing to go back and get changed ;)

Ok. Bon voyage to people who are leaving. To another country of the world. Haha!
Work tomorrow!!!!! 2 more days and REST it shall BE!!!! Love ya'ALL MUACks!

2010-05-17T22:13:00.006+08:00

Then when I believe everyone is revising, sleeping. I'm here ranting/facebook after practicing again. Couldn't resist the temptation to turn on the computer. Not like as if it's gonna help me in scoring full marks for my exam tomorrow. Feeling kinda worried and scared..
(hoping that ranting here along could help a little)
So much lazier than past year. Perhaps it's real competing. Might need motivations here and there. Not that easy. But believe it will yet be another fruitful year in my studies. Sigh.
Tomorrow is gonna be very the first exam. Not very prepared. Been making mistakes here and there. Despite practicing, there is still mistakes. How sad. I'm competing against time. Like it. When hate it when I makes mistakes. But well, I got to lean from my mistakes and not making the same mistakes again. But still, everything back to square one. And I think the biggest mistake is that I persist on working on weekends when I'm supposed to have my revisions and plenty of rest. It all ended up exactly what I expected. Lack of determination to start kick for my revisions at work. Lack of time. Lack of rest. Deprived from sleep. I could only think of my bed the moment I got home. Sigh. Then again, time was wasted. How fast time flies. I think I really got to brush up everything. Making time manageable. This is life. Shoulders aching like mad. Believe everyone having the same problem too. Lastly, Wish my IQB all the best for tomorrow. Thank you to all the ones who had been helping me in my work. Goodnight :)

2010-05-12T08:25:00.003+08:00

Hi. Feeling stressful here. I couldn't get anything into my head. Shocked that I couldn't do it. Shocked that I'm affected by people. Shocked that I'm easily brought down. I've low self esteem, low confidence, hello what's wrong with that? Then why you people always tries to bring me down with it. I feel unsafe enough. But they just..don't know how hurtful it feels deep inside. For the very first time, I have to fake like everything's fine la. Putting ON a smile isn't that easy my dear. Faking it is even harder when you're near to your tears. My god. And Dd couldn't understand I've that insecurities in ME too. I just need someone to understand,for once, for twice, for millionth times. It just sucks being me seriously. I'm sorry. Please don't blame for treating you like stranger when that's what you've done to me. Please, don't interfere in my life anymore. I don't need someone like you. Really. I'm upset. Upset with myself. Upset. I hope after this I'm able to get something in.

2010-05-10T22:33:00.002+08:00

Exams around the corner. I 'm still myself in the holiday mood state when I'm in a competitive class. Amazing or what. Probably it's just what the laziness has got me into. Theories so so so dry.. don't like it. Sigh. And then loading up on food doesn't stops. First comes school then comes work. Life's tough. But life's still good. Been splurging money here and there. Life. What's Life,seriously?

2010-05-03T21:00:00.003+08:00

So you think you very cute la? Human being.
DBT the shit out of me.

2010-04-26T20:36:00.003+08:00

I think that person is just trying to be in close relationship with another la. You know life is like that la. But why boost around? Ha. Whatever lah, You know I'm so fat recently. Sorry? Not recently is all along is just that I'm getting fatter and fatter.( I seriously think I lack the security,I'm not allowed to be fat. Am I really leading this life happily,not?) Ha, so worst. School has been stressful from the start. But wonder what new stuff we will be learning tomorrow. Sigh. Yet no choice :) OH YESSS Thanks to people whom has always been loving me. You people are such a dear.. but not for hypocrites. Hahahahahaha. Thank you Dd. Thank you Hillary. Thanks my dearrrss.Oh I do give encouragement but I hate people that are with motiveZ. Duh..

2010-04-14T13:13:00.001+08:00

The feeling I had was exactly the same how I felt when I first entered the school with strangers. Now I felt even weirder. The one whom usually sat beside me wasn't with me again :(
It makes a huge difference. Makes me wonder if I could go on like this for consecutive 2 years.

2010-04-12T16:27:00.002+08:00

I had a fruitful holiday for the whole 4 months. For the 4 months, many many things happened. People come and go. Best of all, I spent many days with Dd.. slacking with Hillary,Met up with me cliques(Transformer),etc. I also worked for few days for the last week of holidays. Which is, at least still got little bit of pocket money lah..

But ah, today school starts then I hear topic bout money again. Class advisers collecting funds and such. I even took the pictures la. Things nowadays ah, so costly. I really agree with the Auntie that everything are so pricey nowadays, who nag at the 7 year old son that wanted a normal pen for 7$ plus. I wonder how people survive lah. Haha.

Most of my time was with spent with Dd. I really enjoyed myself a lot. Can't imagine there is time to allow us for a second trip to Malaysia. We had our favorite Nasi Lemak the very second time. Went specially to just get my pink socks. But at last, was kinda upset that I couldn't get that wedges due to my big foot la. Dd was there trying to cheer me up..I'm so sorry ;( Caught How to train your Dragon, Very cute. I never knew that such movie could be very nice too. Then we had the last meet up, had our Ice Cream Chef. This time round our mixture tastes much nicer! Ha!

TODAY!!!! SCHOOL REOPENS. WAS REAL EXCITED THE NIGHT B4. Couldn't sleep la.. Hahaha. Who could have imagined I'm in the same class with my girls again!!! Guess God heard me! BUT..this year. Without my PARTNER, Lim Hui Kheng :( Then, EVEN HILARY IS GONE. Damn sad. Well..Challenging class this year. I see so many top scholars. HAHAH. I think I will collapse. Then see me having the depressed look over stressed. I dread that side of me. I really hope I will not ignore Dd and giving the cold shoulder when I face stress..Siggghhh.

Anyway, A brand new year, brand new start. Gotta work hard, All. I see so many familiar faces. Glad to be with you people again. Love!! Really thanks Dd for everything. I MISS DD! HILLARY! HK! MANY! HAHAHA

2010-04-06T18:43:00.004+08:00

It just so happen that we were having it that day. Promotion goes like.

Pocky: 2 for $1.95
Yan yan: 2 for $2.

Me: I can't decide.
Dd: Then take both.

Total: 4 junkies.
Under the stars.

I just miss that day laaaa.. how nice

2010-04-06T18:38:00.004+08:00

Me: Doctor says that it's because my intestines are long and curled and kinda curvy.
Dd: You know why?
Me: Why?
Dd: Cuz you eat too much curly fries.

Hahahaha one of the lamest joke I got from Dd.
And this picture reminds me of our conversation.
Right now, I miss cheese fries.

Will my intestine turned cheesy? Ha.. See you later my smartest ;)

I'm laden with junk. So not good. Mum's nuggets are addictions.

2010-04-02T14:16:00.003+08:00

Dear God, why am I so lazy to get out of my house.. I reallyyyy want to change my stuff laa. So Good Friday and here I'm stuck, home. As usual la, living in pig sty. Behaving like some hungry ghost when i'm obviously full. I don't know why I'm so greedy. Sheesh..even Dd says so :(
Been enjoying myself lately. So almost time to help out too. Feeling lazy..but no choice la. Humans really need money to survive la, boring.

Sometimes, I can understand how those people felt. Because I wish I'm like that too. And here I'm, causing trouble to myself. Sigh.. And school is gonna start in like bout 1 week time. Hmmm. Therefore it means, lesser time for everything. Believe that we'll eventually be out of topic. Anyway..b4 even your birthday..I doubt stuff like this could happen. Hahahah. ;)

SOOOOOO YESSSSS..

Just to wish my ZHU a happyyy birthdayyyyy. =)
Message to zhu : Never thought we'd have come so far. Might hope to see you tonight. Not too late dear, so...you wish you could see me? Hahahahaha hate you for being SILLY! Yuck! *

And an advance to Anitaaaaaa!!! Enjoy!!!

2010-04-01T12:20:00.003+08:00

I feel so loved laahhh..Haha. Woke up early to see Dd's message. Then followed by my Mum giving me a surprise by appearing in front of me. Hahaha! The whole procedure wasn't terrible. I swear I was so timid and scared. Hahahaha. Then I miss all the fruits SO MUCH..suddenly. Therefore. Mummy also bought alot to drown me with it. Hahaha!! So loved!!!! Muack!!!

2010-03-30T11:59:00.001+08:00

Heehee.. it's amazing how my mood changes. I don't feel like talking to you anymore. I feel lousy inside. Sorry.

2010-03-29T20:43:00.004+08:00

Oh my gawd. It really freaks me to hear that there will be some uncomfortable feeling during the whole damn procedure for like awfully 30-40mins!? Tell me how to hell survive that. They gonna hell keep me awake. But hell, I requested to be drown/fainted/unconscious. Serious, this is hell. If only Darling could be that telling me jokes on April Fool's Day. I mean like. But of cuz not, hell no that if the doctors are gonna fool me and ask me to go on for the REAL examination for the second round, I'll slap myself on the spot. Tell me this is not gonna be a awful process. Whose gonna like that feeling?!?!?! ;(

But I think my brother is very consoling. He goes like:"Jie..After your 3 days of hell, I promise to go on a food feast with you. Eat whatever you like till we burst k? " I think he's very sweet.. but not when he tell me how nice the chicken wing was earlier. Ha ha ha.. Ok. Anyway,help me click on the nuffnang ads?
Thank you very much!!!

2010-03-27T12:33:00.002+08:00

Been so long we could sit down together to have fun. Been so long you brought me to South to enjoy the breeze. Been so long you're behaving like this. When it comes to romance, I never dare to expect anything anymore. You've been rather sweet last night. I enjoyed myself very much, having able to be the real me after so long. Thank you :)

2010-03-25T09:35:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I wished,
you could find someone better.

2010-03-24T20:49:00.002+08:00

(Y)

God, I can never imagine indulging in healthy lifestyle after all these. Yes, I like it. Maybe more would make me faint. But did I forget to mention that we're indulging in ultimate sinful food after our healthy lifestyle? It's like 10times waste,darling. Ok after all, It's ME. Ha...I hate people who have a ultimate fast metabolism rate...Hate you people. Hahahahahaha. Oh yes. I enjoyed myself terribly. Really. Damn..I feel so full everyday esp the days with you with all the god damned sinful food!!!! Thank you so much!!!! Definitely enjoyed with my girls ystd!!!! Max love!!!

2010-03-22T13:16:00.002+08:00

Whooo OMFG Tudor Gold DArk Chocolate is the SEX!!!!! I've never loved dark choco in the PAST.. But I like, now!!!! Bitter but nice!!! Hahahahah!!! Thank you darling for the Sibeh cute Hello Kitty mouse pad!! I'm not a fan of HK!! But..things are fine. Hahahahahaha I LIKE!!!!! Cya Dd. I'm freaking lazy to get my stuffs!

2010-03-20T14:44:00.005+08:00

Hello? I need a job badly? Bloody hell. Dvds marathons...Duh. Can the damned discs for some please work? Stupid. Gossip girls. Nice. Can you don't tell me you're bored? Making me bored. Ha!

2010-03-17T20:27:00.002+08:00

Oh my god. I need a savior here. I'm illegally stuffing food inside me. Hahahaha. Wtf seriously.
Consecutive 3 meet up days with Dd almost made me bonkers. I have been enjoying way too much good food. Calories never stop pounding. Hahahaha. Gonna cry very soon..getting devastated by how much weight I have put on. It's just so exaggerating I SWEAR! Having like 3 perfect meals? With snacks and tea breaks in between every 3 meals?!?! Okay food..I've been seeing food almost everyday. Hahaha. But I really like the trip. I even liked today. Aha, sound really very corny over here. But thank you so much..Enjoyed myself alot. From the trip to the farm, out of Sg..chilling out together. Thats the very first time. And me seeing another side of you. Hahahaha! But your words are getting ridiculous as well. Hahaha. But I like. But there is something I'm pondering. HAHA!!
Anyway. Just to rant here. And. I just want to thank you. Heehee. I don't know if it will be that long. But I wish I could do what you did for me, although not as much. Hope ya'll like it. You're so terrible. ;)

2010-03-15T23:06:00.003+08:00

I like today. I like it when it's TLC. Looking forward to tomorrow's trip.
Heehee.

I LIKE.

2010-03-12T11:18:00.006+08:00

Time check: 10:54am

Pig J has not woken up. Haha.. Ok la. I left you alone yesterday go for your mile. Sincerely apologize to you through here. HAHA! Anyway..been enjoying myself these few days. But a tad too much food inside me making me uncomfortable. Hahaha. Serve me right, really. Been consecutively meeting ZHU.. and splurging our money away :( But ZHU enjoying more than me. Hahahaha anyway..a QUICK one.

Yes yes yes yesterday.. We.. wanted..2.. but.. went..

11/03 eLevenze03

Time: 5pm Sakae Buffet
Last order: 5.30pm
Conclusion: Order like never eat b4.
Me: Shocked by hilary.
Hilary: Even shocked by me.( I know, coz I order whatever you don't eat).

Someone just literally dump everything into a container lor..else by pushing everything to my plate. I swear we damn pro,really. Hahahahaha REALLLY!!!!! A grea8 thanks..to the one who "agreed"helped us so much. Hahahahaha. Ok anyway this is just a suprise post..b4 you swim at Atlantic. Enjoyed myself and wake up ZHU. You're sleeping later than ME.

Proud to be surrounded by food. HAHAh wtf
LIKE REAL

Can you imagine?!?!

Hilary..stop denying bout the pink plate please.

Delicious or what? Yike!

She did not eat that.
She merely filled up the container.

SEE? Busy with phone. Food I EAT.

Succeed. My ass.

above: Champion.
Of cos the fattest wins :D

Beyond:Loser.
HAHAHAHAHA

Actually I know why. The food I orderyou don't like. The food you order you denied. Thats why everything ends up in me. YOU LOR. Heehee

2010-03-12T10:53:00.006+08:00

Birthday girl.. heehee

The nicest one confirm is mine la. ;)

POWER.

The 3 weird eaters

More than that. Omg.

I like.

2010-03-10T01:16:00.003+08:00

08/03 zer08zer03

BEEN SO LONG. Hardly have any dates. Just so rare to have a date out. Hahaha. We caught Alice in Wonderland 3D. Nice. Its just wonderful la..I like. Heehee. And then.. had so much. Ate quite alot. Late night supper still. KC!(My god) Purrrfect! We chatted quite alot..as usual. But just wonder..if I grow any fatter..what will happen. Hahaha. Sigh..then..my morale starts to sink later night. If only...i'm prettier..i know i'm selfish to say that..HAHA but who knows how I feel man. Miss my past but dislike my past life. I have a better life now.. thanks Dd. BUT..pardon me when my irritating low self confidence arises. Thank you for being someone so wonderful too.

Sometimes i just wonder..why i kept letting myself down. =( Very sorry to myself really. I feel very pathetic for my stomach..I did not make the effort to improve but worsen it. I did not sleep enough to mend my sins. Hai.. ok enough bout this.

09/03 zer09zer03

Met up with my dear transformers. Yuki Yaki & (HQ's advance 18)..Sedap to the max!!!!! I swear we're super full and very tempted to throw away the wastage. HAHAHA. But really thank god they didnt force us to entirely finish. I just like it when we meet once in a blue moon. I'm really glad. This gathering is even the most rare that the 5 could make it. Awaiting for the next. I love ya'all, very much.

I SWEAR I LIKE THIS!!! Heehee :D

2010-03-07T00:35:00.004+08:00

Sigh.. I can only pray hard.. but will accept what fate had decided for me.. ha
It's been rather long..that we both have supper after work. I just like the feeling of having to eat together. Hahaha. You know those road side food...... I like i like. Heehee. Anyway...see my lian soon ;)

2010-02-26T14:53:00.002+08:00

23/2 Jobhunt/Food/Home

Had so much food + Astons + walking of different destinations.

Equals - Oooh..Celeste :D(Enjoyed myself v much,tks!)

24/2 Grad cere/Ajisen/IMM

WE FINALLY GRADUATED. BUT. THERE. ARE. STILL. MORE. TO. COME.
Therefore, we must really enjoy real hard and work hard. But to also be prepared for school reopening. Hahahaha. I think it's gonna be real tough there.. Not much pictures la! All the pictures damn fail.

-

Been with dd.. then realises I couldn't take late nights that often anymore. I really need plenty of rest... feels so unwell. Sorry..for letting myself down. :(

2010-02-21T13:20:00.002+08:00

Now I know why Mummy feels the pinch to get something I want when its so pricey. But I'm more independent now. Splurging my weekends away.

Whad da hell.

Tell me how to survive during the school days.
Pray hard for tomorrow.

2010-02-19T21:22:00.002+08:00

I kept asking myself if this is what I really wanted.. What I really feared.

2010-02-19T21:04:00.003+08:00

I think this year's new year was total crap for me.. hahaha. I don't feel the atmosphere!!!!! Seriously wtf..first time in my life not being excited about it. I think some of us felt the same way. Hahaha. And then I have the sudden thoughts of splurging my money to be alone for some quiet peaceful times that I can relax and not think about anything. I think I just like that feeling. Or maybe miss that feeling. HAHA..

Then here comes new year and over.. I thought I will come back flooding with pictures. But I realize I don't camwhore much, now. Then I wonder.. is it because I'm looking much more fugly now. But still no matter what, I've to learn to love myself, my face, my everything.. because I'm going to live with it. Hahaha. Can I just quit mumbling and complaining please. I brought the camera along, then I realize the camera wasn't flicked when I was back. Just like one incident, when we were running late for dinner..I told my brother we forgot about the cam. And I insisted he go back and bring it down for me.. hahaha how sweet of him always. Actually I do have some pictures. But ugly pictures. And 90%..I'm lazy. I really need a job..Ring me up someone. I need to get the stuffs and.. I want to get my stuffs. Still hesitating. Hahahaha

I always need DD to comfort me with the answers I want to know,
I need to grow up.. hahaha, but isn't that part of being a girl?

Feminine on the inside.

2010-02-12T12:21:00.002+08:00

Hurhur. A rare catch up with someone whom I usually used to hang out with. Be it shopping or just plain chats, it was more of a thing in the past. Hahaha. But however, we met up on the day before. Hahaha I guess I was just rather happy though I thought it will be more of a shopping trip.. but at least got stuff back la. Something for me to carry on my hand back. Hahaha. Definitely enjoyed with my Celeste ;) Years passed. Things changes, Topic changes. Hahahahahaha!

LOVE

2010-02-07T17:36:00.003+08:00

Steady. I finally get the time to rest..to blog, again. Whoo.. Time for me to rant and feel the peace again. I guess I enjoyed myself well past few days when working. Hahaha. Not really but well sales figures are the ones I hardly sees and are so rare.

Then it's also time to give my face and myself a break. Oh my god. My face's gonna hate me big time for that. I failed to give them the nourishment they need and I age so quickly.. Thanks to Dd for all the night outs! Ok, can't blame Dd. Hahahaha. Because that's the only time we have. After our work. After everything is being seen to. Then we'll have our own time. To chit chat, to complain, to have our meal. I just like that. Things are really so different now,really. Haha.

Would like to thank someone.. But I don't think I'd say out who you're. But you sure know who you're. The one whom I spent time talking with entirely bout Dd and some trouble matter issues. Someone who made me have the courage to confess everything. And also same time, the one who has problems and issues I couldn't help much on. Felt useless though..Sigh. But I just hope the particular someone will be strong and fine once again. Haha.. So is that someone actually reading all these now? I just don't want to cause further misunderstanding by having your name here. Hahahaha, you know I know ;) You had enough of all those craps. Thanks to me. Hahahaha.

For the time being, I think I'm a happy girl. I should be or I must be. Hmmm. In the past, I remembered mentioning that I always envy happy couples or perhaps happy families. But I've learned to look at things in a different angle now.. Time flies. Hahaha. Maybe I wasn't aware of how lucky I'm, how blessed I'm.. to have Dd and my family around. True enough.. things happened just few weeks back.. but I managed to decide what I really want for myself. We managed to pull thru this obstacle. hmmM.. life is such. Sigh.. But Dd and I'd choose to love life the way it is. Dd and I had some misunderstandings that we both did not voice out it finally exploded when eventually I found the courage to do so. But there wasn't any regrets though.. Haha. At least we both know each other better now.

So.. Dd plays a part in my life, now. But still.. I'm single? Haha! Just that..perhaps the status is like, " Single but unavailable (saved for someone* valuable) " OH MY GOD. I'm like hinting something here. Hahaha! But seriously..impossible though. Hahaha. But I'm enjoying it now la.
See.. we're all the sort that doesn't likes to go so fast.. slow and steady wins the race. Hahahah!
Then you know when things goes too fast.. it tends to screw up in the end. Sorry to say that, But I really hate speedy relationships.. I'm not trying to play hard to get. But you really need to know that particular someone for some time in order to be..together? Ok ok. Some of you might start to point fingers at me telling me..no it's not.. I'm wrong. But well. I'm just not that sort.
I think for one thing I'm really happy about.. is that. Finally, someone who could understand me well and better mayb like my mum? ( Oh no.. she doesn't. Like since when??) Hahaha. Just someone new and better.

Ok. I guess I need to redecorate myself..soon. Sigh. I feel so outdated even when compared to my 2 fashionable grandma. Just can't believe it when I saw one of my grandma having a new concave haircut and her telling me : " It's fashion leh.. Nice or not?" * Rolls eyes*

Ok. I have got to go now! Gonna have a advance reunion dinner..with my big big family. Hahahaha. Ok la not big. Just that today another grandma came. Ok.. enough. Bye! I'll be back to blog again..HAHA that's because I'll have more time now.. NEEDS ANOTHER JOB SOON!!!!! =(

Oh, forget to add. Hope to see you soon too my lian. Haha! Your hueh.

2010-02-01T18:24:00.006+08:00

I chose this path that's because I wouldn't want to regret.
And I know it doesn't feels good to regret like
how you once regretted.
Even if choosing this path would make rooms for regrets,
I wouldn't feel regretted once for choosing this path.

2010-01-28T23:17:00.002+08:00

And then which thing starts to go bonkers.. My head hurts.
But..whose gonna be there for me? Haha.. What a crap..
People..please don't claim you care when you don't.. I don't need it.

2010-01-25T22:49:00.003+08:00

Love ya' all

Thanks for the wonderful day with endless craps and laughter

2010-01-25T13:12:00.002+08:00

What's wrong. Why can't I just be patient......Why. I tend to believe others kinda easily. A few just came popping into my life to make a huge mess. Thanks. One of them which I mustn't fall into with, I have already fallen. Deep.. And yesterday, I failed my no.1 resolution again. Thanks.

Puffy, swollen eyes. Thanks a lot.

What's making it worst, I had a fight with Mum. But whatever it is.. I will still choose to love her more. I know she.will.be.there.for.me no matter what happens.

I was MF worried. Tossing side by side..I was thinking the whole night. I CANNOT..GO ON LIKE THIS ANYMORE. Before I go mad someday, I just want to end all this miserable sorrows.

It was complicated. Very complicated. I feel so weak.

Let me be strong again. Leave me alone please.

2010-01-16T10:57:00.002+08:00

Ok ok been so busy lately, hardly have the time to go online though. MY COMPUTER IS STILL DOWN LOR.. Stupid computer!! :( SO...I was telling Mum that.. fixing that computer won't make it any better in 2 years time. Might as well.. GET A NEW ONE!! Yeah lor, but due to the influence of my auntie, she's like intending to get one only..when the IT Fair starts?!!? Which is like during March?! I might as well die off man. Ok kidding. BUT ONE THING.. I'M VERY SCARCED THAT ALL MY PICTURES MY DOCUMENTS MY SONGS MY EVERYTHING WILL BE GONE...just like that. I will cry man. Because I deleted everything from phones, from camera. Nothing left, like totally???? What the hell la. Why didnt I have back up copies! !@#$%
I have so many things to do, yet so little time to do it. Like for example, I have to get my own toiletries stuff la, alteration of pants, shopping, trim my hair, remove nail polish, ok blah blah blah. I wish I have lots of money now..lol. Nevermind! Striving hard..to go shopping. :)

Sometimes, I wanted to feel the numbness of love.. but whenever I do so, I'll be weaker the day before..but stronger the day after. But..still.. it comes after me after some time. Whenever I felt loved/blessed..I break down easily when comes to jealousy. I'm not supposed to know, but I always WANTED to KNOW..very badly. But I just can't. Even when I tried avoiding, I can't. It just happen right infront of me. Then yeah, you see that very irritating moody side of me. But I just can't control the emotional side of me..even though you hated it,very much. I wish I could just say what's going through my mind. But..I just can't. It will make me sound like a fool. Make me sound like, I'm so childish minded. At times, I'm just so tempted to just pour out my feelings. But whenever I tried mustering enough courage, I still couldn't do it. I really wish..I wish I could just tell you everything freely without you even telling me to let you know what's going on. But. If I really were to tell you.. you'd wish I wouldn't have told you anything. Then, I have to keep everything to myself. I was just wondering when will the day come..that we drfited, no calls, no texts. I kept imagining the worst. But I always liked to be prepared for the worst. Because I don't want to appear like a weakling at the end of the day. Haha, ok it wasn't meant to be an emotional post..but sorry if anyone has to read all this nonsense. I'm just trying to pour some of my emotional side here. To put it simple, I'm lack of confidence, lack of courage. I failed the no.1 resolution for 2010. I couldn't do it. You know it hurts so badly to pull back the tears and keep everything to myself right infront of someone that..won't make me cry. My heart just aches so badly. But there's really nothing I could do. Haha, ok gotta stop here. :)

2010-01-10T11:27:00.002+08:00

Someone tell me what to do ah!? My computer is down, application date is officially open tomorrow.. why so fast? Why are the O levels taking their results so fast!!!! :( Sigh, leaves me with very little time to think and consider what I really want. Failure..failure. I can't make up my mind la. !@#$% I think its much more complicated after listening to all the advices. Though.. it may all be the same. BUT STILL WHATEVER IT IS.. I'm still the one that has to make my own decision. :(

2010-01-07T13:06:00.002+08:00

you have been rather nice lately which left me with undesirable thinking.

although it wasn't official.. but as a human being, we are often defeated by that few words which leaves a very deep impact on us.

sometimes i wish to know, i choose to know, i want to know..
but i realize there isn't really a need to know.

afterall, it will be better not to know.

2010-01-04T00:12:00.006+08:00

Dd, that was a wild night.

Over the years, I realized that my face changed like 50%/totally??? HAHAHA Then I remember complaining how fat I was, how ugly I was in the past??? Now I think I look cuter in the past, thinner than present. Why like that???? HAHAHA I think my hair is really CMI leh? I think I need a trim.. Oh oh.. Did I forget to add that I miss my last time's complexion? Why I just can't take good care of myself ah??? So sad.

Ok ok.. I'm going to work tomorrow. And!!! If got lobang for jobs, Introduce ok? At most, I can commit for everyday till..like end of March? BUT..I ALSO VERY FUSSY ONE!! SORRY AND THANK YOU AH!!!

2010-01-02T00:56:00.007+08:00

Can I complain? Can I? I'm very irritated with my nose now. Because I can't sleep. I was flipping on my bed @ 10.22pm till 12.30am.. I finally gave up and tell myself just turn on the computer if I can't get to sleep anymore. I'm like having some problems and difficulty breathing due to the blocked or should I say runny nose? It must be the herbal black chicken soup that my mum forced me to have yesterday. I regretted very much okay.. I want to sleep so badly. I want to get better. I don't want pimples start popping out and eyes swollen and a painful throat. Yes I'm suffering now!!! I want to sleep so badly. But I just can't... So best is to type and type till my eyes dries out and get tired so I CAN SLEEP. Hahaha bear with my nonsense, sorry. Anyway, there are few pictures that I took on 29th December, Our class gathering. But only some turn up.... AND IT WAS MY FIRST TRIP TO SEOUL GARDEN OKAY... Ok what a loser. But I'm not really a buffet person what. Hahaha. I'm very noob in everything ok. Lucky HK Darling was there to help me with it. I think I remember getting excited seeing all sorts of meat and ice kachang all those LOR..... -.-

AND I'VE ONE LAST DIFFICULTY. I COULDN'T MAKE UP MY MIND OF WHAT COURSE TO TAKE. KILL ME PLEASE.

I told eeyore to shot a pic with her ice-cream.
Because her clothing on that day made her and
her ice cream so matching.
See, free advertising for seoul garden leh.
From her look, you can tell how much she's enjoying it lor!

Girlz power ok!

Ok ok picture no more, tuck in tuck in.

I think I was busy eating leh, no time shoot. HAHA!

Wahlao the worst deco ever.
I only think that the tadpole balls are cute lor!

hAhaha Ms Kok was drying her hands
so were like, faster join us!! Still got space!!
Ding Dong ok! Sorry darling your head half half.

7, ZHEN YI MISSING!

Long long one time only leh! My darling siol!

Chiobuz

The left and right hor, bang bang sisters one ok.

Okay you all the best! I love you all MUACKS

2009-12-27T12:31:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I do envy couples when they behave so intimately..being in their own worlds. Like, having someone doting on you, caring for you, doing everything just for you. How sweet!(But i'm not trying to indicate anything here,Mayb I just missed being loved) Haha.

Then I thought to myself : " When will these happen to me....? :) "

I must be dreaming.

I should be happy for the fact that I do not have to
worry about anything for the past 1 year.
Time flies.. Hoping that the new year will be a better year for me.
Same goes to all of you too :)

2009-12-26T11:28:00.005+08:00

Yeah..you always thought I sound so mad
when it always hurts so badly..
and I have to keep everything to myself..
Even hugging the pillow tight doesn't makes the aches go away.
When can all this officially end? Please.
I've to learn. Learn to be even stronger. Not. to. be. defeated.

2009-12-25T01:27:00.007+08:00

I finally understood,
I tell myself it doesn't matter.

DD,I'm always understanding but it'll always has its limits.
09'Christmas

Merry X'mas to All :)
I'll miss them all and the smell of *Goreng Pisang.

2009-12-21T13:36:00.010+08:00

Ok while waiting for that pig person to wake up for registration, I'm like waiting for my nails to be dry and meanwhile posting about my boring,interesting,unpleasant trip to Batam with my family and relatives that flew from Hk. I think things can get really horrible at times between me and my Mum. Ha ha ha. Just when I thought it's gonna be a good day for me and yes, I'll say i enjoy the trip but no, unpleasant stuffs happened at the very end all because of MARYBROWN & KFC that almost nearly caused me and brother not able to go back to Sg. Ha! Save it for later :) And yes, I really get so pissed off when whoever the person that steals my favorite black pumps which I couldn't get it in Sg anymore :( (it's just so frustrating that my favorite things always goes missing..) Yes, I tell myself when I'm going back Hk again, I'll get like 5 pairs of it if I ever sees it again. Lol!!!

Oh yes, I have to say that the ever most pathetic thing is that.. I'M NOT REALLY A SEAFOOD LOVER! Except for the fact I still love fish the most among them. But..but.. my relatives came to stay for like 7 days. But that doesn't matter. What matters the most is that I've been like following them whenever they tour around Sg and I've been like eating SEAFOOD for every 3 meals a day???? Ok la, I won't be that exaggerating..BUT I see PRAWNS,CRABS..almost everyday. Ya lah, I know I can choose not to eat it what. But really. I get so sick of it. I hardly even sees my favorite plate of veggies. It's either meat,fish or seafood. Even when we dine out, confirm confirm I see seafood. And that was partly the reason why my mum and I fought. I was being told not to be fussy.. hahaha. I fussy meh!!!!! DD SAYS I'M NOT MA!!

Sorry but the pictures will mostly be FOOD. It's not that I'm obsessive of them but I really see food like most of the time and I'm complaining about it. So just to share my horrible experience. Hahahahahaha.

3rd time to Indonesia but never been to Batam.
hAhahah!

My half awake brother.

Before setting off, Mum and I went to the duty free store.
And it costs freaking $25 to get like two packs of chocolates?!
One with 3 mixed flavors of Toberlone and One Mini Toggi which..
I don't even think its nice at all. I only ate the dark choc though.
However, I have to say the 25 bucks is such a waste.
The chocs melted when I left it at the bus.

I had always wanted to know what's "Gong gong"..
and it turns out to be some snail..Omg..
I remembered how Ah Cher they all told me they loved this.

So me and my brother made a pact. I told him that if he eats it, I'll try to eat it.
End up..we were so disgusted that we nearly lose our appetite.
So we both end up eating plain rice and fish, fried sotongs?, can't remember.

Oh yes. Chili crabs. No, I don't like them.

Ok. Fried fish. I think it's ok but kinda hard.

Ah,their prawns are small. But i still don't like.

It's fried sotongs! My goodness. At first.. My brother and I thought it was finally something edible!!!! We both have the same thoughts that it's POPCORN CHICKEN!!!! But we were so strong. But it still doesn't taste that terrible la. I just find it starchy lor.. but I don't like that chewy part.

My terrible sister teaching Mei mei how to breathe in water.
I'll reveal Mei mei picture later. She's so irresistibly cute and smart.

Dinner for irritating girl :

My favorite drink!!!!!FOREVER!!
Hahahahaha A MUST-HAVE! :)

Breakfast@hotel.
Woah..we took like few varieties. Omg.. And I like one thing is that they prepare the eggs only if you want and you can order how you like plus one egg is like made up of 2? And there's waffle too..made on the spot. How nice and warm..Yumz. hAhahaha!

Sis's donut for breakfast.

Mum's appetizer and waffle..
judging by the way she react..sure is nice la. Haha!

There! She was the cute girl I was mentioning bout.
Very cute and very smart!! Haha! A honkie cutie!

Me and her mum. She took this. So zhun.

I think he's forever half awake lorrrr...

@MaryBrown:
This causes us almost...not able to catch our ferry.
It all started that we were too bored with all the seafood they have.. ok la.
Initially, it was me. But my brother sure tag along with me. So after all Dad gave us some Rupiah to buy our food. And literally, Mum just ask us to go and buy KFC and stay there after our food. However, Me and my brother wasn't aware there is KFC.. So we went down to the 1st floor where they serve MaryBrown, A&W, PizzaHut,etc.. Btw because we simply thought that KFC is available in Sg, Why not we try smth different.(We're still unable there's KFC almost we went past it..) So we made up with the decision to go MaryBrown to have our lunch. However,the food sucked. Firstly, it wasn't served hot. The fries were horribly cold and soggy. I don't know about my brother's chicken. And I felt guilty for not letting him try A&W and he has to suffer eating
that horrible MB. Lol..

Then somehow, we tried to finish real quick like about 15mins. As we only have like 30mins to eat. So as we were told. We sat outside MB for like 15mins. And we still don't see them coming down. After looking at the time, my brother and I decided to go up the restaurant they were having their food. Unexpectedly..someone whom saw us earlier signal to me my family has left. My brother and I first reaction was,Omg.. We're in deep shit this time round. So being frantic.. We quickly ran down to level one and sit quietly at A&W..thinking they'll find us. But time aren't being kind.. So i'm super scared. Thank god my brother did not cry else I'll go mad. But I think I'm the one almost tearing. But best part..I tell my bro to sit down while I search for them. So......while searching........ We heard our names being called out...to report to the reception counter outside KFC. HAHAHAHA. We were so happy la.. But still unaware there's KFC.. Still, we ran up to KFC. Everyone was there...and I felt so guilty lah.....CORRECT.

And there, my mum was so fast and furious loh. She started screaming...... ZzzZzZz. But it's really not our fault......really. We wasn't aware there's KFC..and cannot presume we CONFIRM will eat KFC what. There's SO MANY RESTAURANTS..however..we all went down the wrong escalator so we couldn't bump into each other. Hahahaha so she was like @!@#&@!&#^!@#.. And I started crying lor....I must admit the people at the custom very kind lah.. They saw me with teary red eyes and some of them even started laughing saying in their language that there's a little girl crying and I don't know why he actually find it funny. HA! Mayb at my age la.. So I tell myself that I'm so not going to travel with my mum ever again and...I'll never talk to her again. I really ignored her. HahahA.

The best part is that when it's my turn to get chopped for passport.

The person asked if i'm alone and why I'm crying. He even thought that I'm leaving my family for something or separated. Haha. But really..they are kind hearted. Hahaha.

So unwilling.

Hai..thinking back. It's really stupid..
JUST because of MB and it wasn't tasty at all compared
to the last time I had at Genting's.

2009-12-21T12:41:00.004+08:00

Jingle Bells

Dd's injured and not back yet.. Looks like our 08' Christmas is kinda impossible.
Miss you, ' 09 Xmas.

2009-12-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

Been so busy lately..hardly even get the time to rest. Sigh.............

2009-12-03T12:35:00.005+08:00

01 December 2009

Yay! my 7 angels lol

boys over flowers fake version 2. haAhaha lol

where can forget our CUTEST aunty!

Twist twist wan sui

Ok ok.. the end.

Thanks for the wonderful memories, IOI.

2009-12-02T12:05:00.007+08:00

Look, I'm sorry, but I don't think I owed you anything. Please don't give me any stupid expressions like I owed you anything in my life. If you're not pleased, it's none of my business. But I can't stand that arrogant face of yours. I believe, as a friend, I done my part. Yeah, I dare to say so. Come on, it's not my job or responsibility to please you as one or just you alone. Hell yeah, I always tried my very best to please people but what the heck do I get in the end? No, no. You're wrong. I don't expect anything in return. But I'd never expect some dopey faces or expressions that tells me that,Oh you're so not pleased. SO??? Yes. I welcome complaints, I welcome rants. But no.. I'm sorry to say that I dislike..dislikes people who doesn't appreciate after what I've done. But it doesn't really matter much. Because...I know I done my part being a friend. If you're ever not pleased with anything, tell me. I'd rather you tell me than that stupid expression. Yeah, I learned something new. I know.. and there's always endless of learning. I'll still learn and continue to learn.

Human beings can be so scary at times.

2009-12-01T09:08:00.001+08:00

Ok ok. Before I go bonkers, good luck to all taking exams today. By 12:31pm, we can all rejoice. Lol. And.. the best part... we have to say good bye :( Nevermind, just don't forget our dates ok! Haha.

2009-11-23T11:32:00.005+08:00

Mentally,physically..

I'm really lack of motivation to start on anything.

Exams.

Why.

I really need speed remedy for

runny,

blocked nose

and

major headaches.

Before it kills me.

It's ... Life.

It doesn't gets any better than this.

* Shakes head *

DD, you're the culprit.

2009-11-22T21:52:00.007+08:00

Complaint.

Hectic community service.

Today hor one very old ah ma hor step onto my shoe+feet leh

beh tahan lor!

very painful ok.
I forgive.

Happy Grandparent's Day.
hahAhahaA

Best of the best(!!), Muack muAck.

2009-11-19T19:48:00.007+08:00

Thank god..19 of November we completed ONE exam paper. Ok..2 more to go. Will we go bonkers even before we could.. (Love teacher for being understanding) Thank you for 3 days of weekends. Happy advance grandpa-grandma day on Sunday.

DD, you're such a terrible person. I hate you very much.

2009-11-16T09:08:00.002+08:00

DD, don't sad leh. I'm here :)

We're always one, tio bo?

o8'Xmas

2009-11-12T08:48:00.006+08:00

Day with Dad..

After so long, I have never thought of this day..
It was never easy in the past.

2009-11-07T14:40:00.006+08:00

30/10 IOI's Office Phase Test

My Ninja! & Eeyore :)

Cute hor? Haha

Best etiquette teacher :)

Love appreciation!!!!
hAhahahAha

Sexaye'Momma,the seductive OL in white.
hahAhaAhaha

My face failed-.-

heehee, anyway sorry for the late upload from those
who wants the pictures. The full version I had already tagged you all in fb.
:)
love y'all

2009-11-01T13:08:00.003+08:00

23/10

1,2,3 Cheese. Unprepared.
I want to smile for the picture, but too late.
hAhahAha the one and only picture we got for month of oct :)

It's been so long...

2009-10-25T20:21:00.005+08:00

Love,joy, fun & laughter..

23/10 Chalet w Celeste *SWH @ Darick's. Happy advance 20 :)

24/10 Iluma/My sister's keeper-,-/Starbucks/Yoshinoya

I didn't know we would catch that....muveee.

I begin to feel like I am one superwoman..

Little rest yet so much work. My eyes weighs so heavy..
and not forgetting the black panda rings.

I need to sleep. Really. Really. School is Monday. Monday is School. Hai..

Sorry..not you.